Why does it seem so impossible to run away from your problems?
I long to abandon mine. I want to be overseas. Just me and my backpack. Alone. This feeling is growing inside of me. It’s bringing me home and mixing me up all at once. I just want to disappear. 
I want to go back to Chania and spend time on the oceanside with Apostolis. I want to see Switzerland and Thailand and Norway. Ireland…
I want to genuinely be alone when I feel alone, rather than surrounded by hoards of familiar faces. At least that way when I feel empty it’s explainable. 
What is this insatiable hole inside of me? 

I do indeed want to run from any problems I have here. Firstly because it just sounds…easy. It sounds easy to just run and be so focused on learning another language and how to get your ass home on the last train or bus that I couldn’t have a second to think about Winnipeg or all that lies within. But secondly because I don’t feel like it’d entirely BE running from problems… just a completely different way of dealing with them. Growth. Growth that can only come from travel.

However, rather than eloquently designing sentences tonight, I’m vomiting thoughtless paragraphs. So I must retire from Tumblr and turn my attention to Gilgamesh or Netflix where I can find something to numb my brain into sedation. Goodnight. 


  1. gentlemanjim9 reblogged this from caribbean--paradise
  2. volleybitch reblogged this from tropicalfury
  3. wethelove123 reblogged this from tropicalfury
  4. changing-year-round reblogged this from tropicalfury
  5. tropicalfury reblogged this from santoriniblog
  6. shinebeyondthepavement reblogged this from santoriniblog
  7. blackstaraura reblogged this from santoriniblog
  8. vivian-nguyen reblogged this from santoriniblog
  9. mylifebe-like-hooah reblogged this from santoriniblog
  10. pearls-and-berries reblogged this from santoriniblog
  11. caribbean--paradise reblogged this from blue-hawaiii
  12. weallaspire reblogged this from santoriniblog
  13. breakfastwithsatan reblogged this from itsmistified
  14. blue-hawaiii reblogged this from santoriniblog
  15. betweenalivendead reblogged this from sadistic-tragedy
  16. itsmistified reblogged this from infested-waters
  17. greekbarbiedoll reblogged this from santoriniblog
  18. cer3n reblogged this from santoriniblog
  19. e-escapade reblogged this from santoriniblog
  20. na-zareth reblogged this from santoriniblog and added:
    Why does it seem so impossible to run away from your problems? I long to abandon mine. I want to be overseas. Just me...
  21. ourinkandsoul reblogged this from santoriniblog
  22. infested-waters reblogged this from santoriniblog
  23. mklingensmith reblogged this from santoriniblog
  24. seducemymindfindmysoul reblogged this from gimenchis
  25. sadistic-tragedy reblogged this from gimenchis
  26. jangowangomango reblogged this from santoriniblog
  27. preshousrenee reblogged this from gimenchis